Busy doing nothing

Someone sent me an e-mail this week which started..."I know that you are busy" and it made me stop for a minute. Because my days are somewhat busy and yet - I do NOTHING. The life of a SAHM is like writing in the sand on the beach. Just when you finish your masterpiece (read: get to the bottom of the laundry basket) the tide comes up and completely washes it away. I spend entire days just trying to maintain the status quo so the house looks the exact same at the end of the day as it did when we started the day. I know this isn't exactly a revelation. There are millions of mes doing this every day. But it feels especially salient now that T is in the clingy 9 month old phase. I spend hours a day walking around the house holding her while attempting to finish a project one handed or making lists in my head of projects I would love to tackle. And the irony is that they are projects like "start the taxes", "clean out the linen closet"or "fertilize". Projects that normal people would run screaming from but to me hold great appeal at the moment because they have a beginning, middle and an end. Sometimes I am able to appreciate the sort of poetic beauty of a day spent taking a walk to the park, making healthy snacks that kids gobble up and tucking everyone in bathed, exhausted and content. Today is one of those days when that is just not enough. But I am still "BUSY".